For Papa With Love

Dear Papa,

The anniversary of your death was about nearly three weeks ago. I can’t believe it has been nine years already since the last time I saw you. So many things, good and bad, have happened since you left. While I miss you terribly, I know that you are still with me. I love you Papa. I know that we had a good relationship, and I know that you knew how I loved you. But I just wish that I told you more often.

I miss you so much. I wish you were here to comfort me especially after Nanay died. I am still grieving. Both of you have been taken by our good Lord to be with Him in Paradise. The last day I was with Nanay, I told her that I loved her, and I know that the last time I talked to you on the phone, I told you that I loved you, but for some reason it didn’t seem like enough, nothing seems enough. Sometimes, I cry so hard I can’t breathe, but breathing gets easier over time, I guess. But please know that everything is all right, and I’m okay. I’m sorry it took your death and Nanay’s death for me to miss you both so much. I’m sorry you’re not here. I wish both of you could be there on my big day (soon). I’m sure if you were still alive, you would give me your blessings, just like Nanay had given me hers.

I will always love you Papa, and that love will keep you alive in my heart.  You truly left your fingerprints on my life and on everyone’s lives that you touched and I will always miss you and look forward to the day when we will be together again in God’s wonderful home.

Happy Fathers’ Day! I love you Papa!

With love,

Elizabeth